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09:38 am
3/2/06

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Soooooooooo bored
L - A - S - T:

1. Last Cigarette: 10 minutes ago
2. Last kiss: yesterday morning
3. Last Cry: Sunday, i was being manic depressive
4. Last Library Book Checked Out: probably sometime in high school
5. Last Movie Seen In a Theater: 50 cent
6. Last Book Read: Violet and Claire
7. Last Cuss Word Uttered: fuck
8. Last Beverage Drank: Coffee
9. Last Food Consumed: pizza
11. Last TV Show Watched: Drawn Together
12. Last Time Showered: yesterday
13. Last Shoes Worn: Sugars
14. Last CD played: Taking Back Sunday
15. Last Soda Drank: pepsi
16. Last Thing Written: i dunno
17. Last Words Spoken: goodmoring Scarlett
18. Last Annoyance: Everything
19. Last Time Scolded Someone: yesterday
20. Last Web Site Visited: myspace

B - O - D - Y:

1. Piercings: 1
2. Tattoos: 4
3. Height: 5'8
4. Shoe size: 9
5. Hair color: blond

L A S T . . .

1. Movie you rented: Dirty work, i still have it six months later
2. Movie you bought: Walk the Line
3. Song you listened to: Gay Fall out boy song
4. Song that was stuck in your head: above
5. CD you bought: Kanye
8. Person that's called you: Brian
9. Thing you felt bad about: ..........
10. Person you were thinking of: Brian
11. Friend you made: Tim at Stanleys

R A N D O M

1. You have a crush on someone: nope
2. You wish you could live somewhere else: cali
3. You think about suicide: for others, not me
4. You believe in online dating: no
5. You want more Piercings: maybe my lip
6. You drink: who doesnt?
7. You do drugs: 3 years ago
8. You smoke: yes
9. You like cleaning: just to ruin it again
10. You like roller coasters: no, i like my feet on the ground
11. You write in cursive or print: both sometimes

F O R *O R *A G A I N S T...

1. Long distance relationship: it doesn't work
2. Teenage smoking: dont give a fuck
3. Doing drugs: against, unless you need to write
4. Driving drunk: sometimes nescessty
5. Soap operas: boring
6. Someone uses someone for their goodies: gay

H A V E Y O U . . .

1. Ever cried over a female/male: yes
2. Ever lied to someone: yes
3. Ever been arrested: maybe

W H A T...

1. Favorite alchoholic drink: cider
2. Shoes do you wear: sugars and volitle
3. Are you scared of: spiders
4. Whats your favorite flower: lily

N U M B E R . . .

1. Of times you have been in love?: twice for real
2. Of times you have had your heart broken?: i broke my own heart
3. Of hearts you have broken?: too many
4. Of drugs taken?: shitstorm
5. Of people you consider your enemies?: alot
6. Of scars on your body?: a lot
7. Of things in your past that you regret?: 1
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08:50 am
2/13/06

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Same place Same time See you there next week
I love this shit, shit, shit, shitty life. I've got the cancer. Fun for me. I get to have fun fun fun laser surgery, hoo rah! what a good fucking time.
Mean while.... elsewhere.... the chick i work for is friggin insane like you wouldn't even beleive, it is so totally unbelieveable. Words cannot even begin to describe. Totally need a vacation from this thing, the weekend is just not enough anymore. Swears man, just want to fucking strangle somebody with the telephone chord, choking out one last breath. deathdefying.
Got so fucking wasted this wasted, so fucking rad. I need like a fucking month too do that, it's so few and far between, that it is fucking scary.
Track one for NED is done, just needs vocals and equalization. getting nother guitar. need it. Need Korg Triton even more. Rock out, rock on, rock and roll. Have so much laundry to do, swear I don't know where my kid keeps getting alll these friggin clothes from. Neeed to party with old friends. feel human like blood. Fucking tired feel like crap, i'll send you the bill.
Current Mood:
 sick sick
Current Music:
 Polysics
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09:39 am
1/24/06

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Has anybody else ever seen that episode of SPace Ghost where he's raising money for the mentally handicapped and he turns "deparado" into "retardo"? Don't know hy I just thought about that but I did.

Saw Ryan Palshis walking down the street this morning. Didn't know it was him until I was past him. Oh well.

Current Music:
 Refused
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05:02 pm
1/23/06

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Find me on MySpace and be my friend!
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12:02 pm
1/23/06

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Started work on our new comic book, "Brian the Drug Crazed Maniac." Guaranteed to sell millions. Trust me, I know these things. My JTHM book came finally. Didn't think it'd ever fucking get here. I hate Brizzle's job. Hope he quits today. I miss him, already, and it's only been a couple of hours. Got a sharp pain in neck think it's brain death. Or a tumor. Sudden spasams, not feel good. Fuck.
Current Mood:
 crazy crazy
Current Music:
 Atreyu
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09:51 am
1/19/06

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People Iced:Forty One
Car Bombs Planted:Four
Favorite WeaponBag Full Of Doorknobs
Arms Broken:Fifteen
Eyes Gouged:Nineteen
Tongues Cut Off:Four
Biggest Enemy:Prickly Pear

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09:50 am
1/19/06

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09:43 am
1/19/06

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I get to go home tonight. I miss brian so much. I can't wait for sexy. Sexy is awesome.
Current Mood:
 ecstatic ecstatic
Current Music:
 My Chemical Romance
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09:22 am
1/17/06

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1. What time is it in one hour?
10:22

2. Name as appears on birth certificate:
Jazmyn

3. Nickname(s):
JD, Jazzie, Trainwreck, Barbie

4.Do you drive?
I do, but I hate it

5. Single or taken?
so Taken

6. Chinese zodiac:
???

7. All hair colors:
Blonde

8. Eyelash color:
Blonde

9. Height at age 12:
5'8" Same as now

10. fav. color:
all my favorite colors aren't really colors

11. Glasses, contacts or neither?
both

12. Braces?
Not anymore

13. Piercing/tattoos?
ears 5, nose 1/left arm 2, left leg 1, chest 1

14. Birthplace:
Milwaukee

15. Current residence:
Syc City

16. Siblings name and age:
Nikki (20) Jacob (24)

- HAVE Y0U EVER -

17. Gotten super wasted?
Oh yeah

18. Gotten so drunk you don't remember what happened?
I think I lived like that for a year

19. Drank 5 liters of beer in 2 hours?
I suppose it's possible

20. Had an Irish carbomb?
Yes

21. Skipped school by peer pressure?
By my own pressure

23. Kissed someone not related to you 30+ years older than you?
NO, you're a pervert

24. Kissed someone of the same sex?
Yes

25. Made out with more than two people in one day?
Yes

26. Hit your head somewhere and been knocked out?
yes

27. TP'd someone's house?
No

28. Won something of value?
Nope

29. Asked a stranger out?
maybe.i dont remeber everything that i do

30. Been rejected by someone?
I do the rejecting

31. Been in love with someone who didn't know it?
yeah, for years

32.Been to over five funerals?
Many more than five

33. Used a lighter?
everyday.

34. Been on stage?
Yes.

- FAV0RITE -


35. Pasta:
yeah?

36. Ice cream flavor:
cookie dough

38. Favorite class:
I dont do that

39. Breakfast cereal:
luckey charms

40. Number and why:
fuckstorm

41. Book:
fuckstorm

42. Horror Movie:
Night of The Living Dead

43. Candy:
I don't know

44. Cola/Brown Soda:
RC

45. Color:
black

46. Vacation spot(s) that you like:
huntington beach

47. Sport to watch on TV:
The WHite Sox

48. Sport to play:
hockey

49. Fruit:
Bananas

50. Sound:
my baby, she so funny

51. Fast food restaraunt:
i hate fast food

52. Cartoon Character:
Invader Zim/Dib

53. Holiday in the 1st 6 monthz of the year:
St pat

54. Name for a boy:
Cannaan Casey or Cameron I like the C's

55. Name for a girl:
Scarlett Isabelle

- D0 Y0U PREFER -

56. Chocolate, strawberry or vanilla?
chocolate.

57. Boys or girls?
boys

58. Long relationships or one night stands:
Long relationship.

59. Dogs or cats or horses?
cats

60. comedies or scary movies?
scary

61. Silver or gold?
silver.

62 Croutons or bacon bits?
Bacon bits are the shit

- THINGS THAT C0ME T0 MIND -

63. Potato:
bacon

64. Tomato:
gross

65. School:
fuck storm

66.Grass:
shit storm

67. Cow:
moo

68. Canada:
yea hey der

69. Mouse:
stomp

70. Hand:
on my butt


- THE PAST 40 H0URS, HAVE Y0U .. -

71. Watched a movie:
nope.

72. Talked on the phone?
Yea, brian

73. Cried?
i'd reaither not answer

75. Had sex?
no

76. Gone to the bathroom?
yeah

77. Read a book or magazine?
Victoria's secret catalog

78. Watched TV:
yea

79. Looked in the mirror?
Yes

80. Taken a shower?
ya

81. Taken a picture?
no

82. Listened to music?
Yeah

83. Hugged or kissed someone?
yeah

84. Done your homework?
i dont have any

85. Told someone you loved them?
yeah i told brian and scarlett


- D0 Y0U BELIEVE IN .. -

86. Heaven?
yes

87. A one true love?
yes

88. Aliens:
yeah

89. Fun for the entire family?
yeah

90. Freedom of speech?
i beleive we should have it

91. Love?
Yea

92. Magic?
no, fuck chris angel

RAND0M STUFF -

93. Last movie you saw in theatres?
50 Cent

94. Are you listening to music right now?
Yeah

95. What color shirt are you wearing?
Blue

96. Do you like your middle name?
No

97. What is the best thing since sliced bread?
High Definition TV

98. What color is your backpack?
black.

99. What time is it now?
9:36
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09:07 am
1/17/06

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Fuck Your Job
I got my new tattoo on Friday, it's almost healed but it's annoying as shit cause it's on my chest, so everytime something touches it I freak out. I will have pictures once it's all healed up.
I'm at work right now, I have nothing to do. The kid's at school so I'm a bored. Brian comes out to visit tonight and Nikki might have lunch with me tomorrow. This feels entirely to lazy to be getting paid $400 a week. I mean I cook, I declare bedtime, I wake him up, I clean. It's weird.
Anyways, bored.
Current Mood:
 bored bored
Current Music:
 Fear Before the March of Flames
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